A Year Ago

Today is tough..one year ago we found out we lost our baby boy. There probably has not been a single day i have not thought about that. One year ago today was also the day we decided to adopt and we have spent every single day of the last 6 months smiling because of our little girl. All that can happen in one year can make your head spin.
I really thought I would have a harder time today than I have had, actually the days leading up have been even tougher, like a count down to D day was going through my head... just remembering those words "i'm sorry there is no longer a heartbeat..." Now that it is here I am trying to focus all that we have gained since. If we hadn't made the decision to adopt that day then we would not have Bella. She makes us smile and laugh and thank God every day. We are so lucky to have her as our daughter :)

Dylans birthday party

On Sunday we went to Jamies friend from colleges sons birthday..(got that?? :)





The party was in Merrick so we drove over to see the house that Grandpa grew up in. Does it look the same Dad???

Happy 6 Months!!!

I can't believe how quickly time flies by! Bella got to spend the day with both grandparents today..mine left this morning for Florida and Jamies came this afternoon. We picked up Bubbi and Papa at the train station and then went to the park.
We just got an email from Ashley, I was so happy to get it! I truly want to stay in contact with her. I don't think anyone will ever understand how I feel about her....she gave me something I could not create on my own, she gave us and our family the most precious gift ever. She is amazing.
She mentioned today Bella was 6 months and asked how she was doing and what she was doing...crawling, etc....she even sent some pictures, she looks great!! She went to her first concert...yay for her!!!! She's getting to be a teenager. I am so happy to know she is doing well :)

Giggle Time

Valentines Weekend

Bella's first Valentines day! She got a balloon from daddy and then got to spend the weekend with grandma & grandpa while we went to Saratoga and Lake George!!

bouncey bouncey

More Night Time Giggles

Dinner Time!! ..first night of "real" food

Not sure she is such a fan of her rice cereal, but atleast we can say we finally tried!