Out Of the Hospital

I got out of the hospital yesterday but the Dr would not allow me to go to the city to see Henry....he made a point of saying this in front of my parents and Jamie so that there was no chance i went. He said because I was recovering from major surgery, being sick from preeclampsia and still have my blood pressure erratic that if i did not take it easy I would be back in the hospital.
So, like a good (exhausted) girl i went home yesterday and went to bed. This morning my dad drove me down to Columbia, Jamie had spent the night so he met me out front.
I don't know what I was expecting but it took everything i had not to burst into tears when i saw him. He is so small and had so many tubes and stuff all over him...it was so hard. They said he is doing really well, and he is only 5 days old so it is going to take time but all i wanted to do was pick him up and hold him...make him healthy.
I still can't fathom all this...even so, i can't even begin to explain how blessed jamie and i both feel. Just a little over a year ago life looked so different...and with in 13 months we go from no children..to two. We have a son and a daughter and it is so absolutely amazing. I just keep picturing them playing together in a couple of months(years..) and i get so excited. It's awesome.

We're taking this all day but day and each day he gets just a teeny step better!!

First Visit

I forgot how small he was!! It was so hard to go see him at the hospital after almost a week. He was covered with so many tubes and machines are beeping non stop...totally insane. I just wish he was still in my belly.

3am...Your Baby is Sick

When he was first born they were actually very happy with how he was doing, but by the middle of the night things had changed. The Dr came in at midnight and said that Henry was not doing as well as he hoped and he felt it was best if he was transported to Columbia Presbyterian where they were more equipped to take care of sick preemies. Mind you I am drugged up and freaking out at this point...why is this happening?? Luckily Jamie had spent the night in my room with me so I wasn't alone.

At about 3am the transport had arrived to take him, they wheeled him into my room in what I call the "space pod" so I could say goodbye. It sucked, I was totally freaked out..i really didn't understand what was going on. Jamie decided to go down to the city with them, which I was so happy about. He sent me texts the entire night, letting me know when they had arrived, when he was settled in and all the things that they were saying.

It was a long night...

Henry Joseph Donsky!!!

Henry "Hank" Joseph Donsky
14.5"
2lbs 1oz

6:37am






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Happy Anniversary!! It's a BOY!

At 4am I woke up to go to the bathroom and my chest killed. I tried to take a breath, it hurt so bad I started to cough. I called the nurse. She came in took my blood pressure and it was 190/110. She called in another nurse with another BP machine...again it was high. This is one sign the the PreE was getting worse. Another nurse came in..and within 5 minutes there are 5 nurses in my room talking and poking and looking anxious. By 4;30 they had called the Dr and he was on his way in. About 5am they called Jamie and told him I was having trouble breathing and he should come in. The next hour was totally insane. All at once my clothes were being taken off, gown put on, IV's, catheters in and wheeled out to prep for surgery. I was having this baby now.

Jamie made it just in time. They explained to him what was going on. The "bomb" had gone off, my blood pressure was off the charts and I was having congestive heart failure, the baby needed to come out now. The C Section was so creepy, I repeated that over and over to Jamie...ick, i totally didn't like it. I could feel everything!! It was soo awesome though when they took the baby out and said "It's a boy!!".

We did it!! We made a baby!! So amazing :-)

Preeclampsia

On Thursday I met with the high risk Dr I had been seeing in the beginning of my pregnancy. The first time we met with her she reviewed my file from this pregnancy and the previous one and determined I had placenta issues. She said that she felt that was the reason why I lost Sam, and there was nothing that could have been done. She said this pregnancy would be watched closely.
So when we met with her on Thursday she did an ultra sound and said immediately that I had severe preeclampsia. The babies stomach was small compared to the rest of his body, which meant he was not getting the nutrients from the placenta that he was supposed to be in order to grow. She said I was not going home until the baby was born and that could be in a day, a week a month. She said I was a ticking time bomb just waiting to go off.... I called Jamie crying once again. Why why why couldnt this just be a normal pregnancy????

How it Began

For a couple of weeks I was really not feeling well, completely exhausted but I just figured that was natural I was chasing Bella around and I was pregnant but it just getting worse. Friday, September 11th I went shoe shopping...what an adventure, NOTHING fit. I went from 6 1/2 and was now purchasing a size 9 shoe...huh?? And by the next morning that shoe barely fit. I'm sitting getting my hair done watching my feet puff up by the minute. Again, pregnant, swelling is normal, right?? So that night we leave Bella with Jamie's parents pack up and head to LI for a wedding. My shoes, again barely fit. I pretty much sat the whole night. The next morning I woke up and they were HUGE, but I ignore them. On the way home we stop by Jones Beach and take a nice walk. Who knew it was the last peaceful time alone before our world totally went insane.



On the way home I started noticing my hands were getting puffy. I suddenly remembered the high risk Dr telling me that I was at risk for Preeclampsia, I looked it up on the web and started reading the symptoms to Jamie. I kind of felt like I was overreacting..but it seemed possible.

When we got home I could barely walk and my mother in law made me call the dr she said my face looked swollen too. Who wants to call and bother a Dr on a Sunday when most likely it's totally normal?? But I did, thank God.

He also said it was probably nothing but to meet him at the hospital. So we got back car. My blood pressure was a little high and there was protein in my urine, both signs of PreE. He decided he wanted me to stay for the night for observations. He wanted an hourly check of my BP and a 24 urine collection. So i spent the a very uncomfortable night having the stupid BP wake me up every hour on the hour.

About 11am the next morning, one of the other Dr's from my practice said I could go home but to come to the office the next day, Tuesday.

So Tuesday I go in my BP is really high, they make me lay down on my left side for 10 minute take it again and it's all good. So he says come back again tomorrow to see the high risk Dr.

Wednesday I go in they do a full work up, check the baby and tell me I am to go to the hospital for more observations. It was Wednesday and I would be there atleast until Sunday. They still were not convinced it was PreE but all the signs were saying so and they were starting to getting worried.

We went home got my stuff, I called Jamie at work and cried, I was just so frustrated this whole pregnancy all I kept thinking about was how I wanted to be "normal" have a "normal" pregnancy...this was not part of my plan.